Stuff to Steal

stole this from 7aki, so thought to fill it up...

I am: Always trying to learn a new thing.
I think: Its about time to get off my ass after being lethargic for more than two years.
I know: that i am doing better now than 6 months ago.
I have: been away from this blog and the internet for a long time
I wish: That I can figure out how things are going to be 2 years from now. Since by then a lot should have changed by then.
I hate: how I had been lied to, spied on, manipulated, and generally not being myself.
I miss: my partner of 4 years it will never be the same at work without him
I fear: Disclosure and the mayhem it might bring, oh and going back to Yemen.
I hear: that you can shoot someone 4 times and get off with close to nothing if your last name is birdy (asfour), but i guess the same can't be said about being a pedo those birdies get caught on camera and go to jail. so birdies shoot away.
I smell: little to nothing, pretty much lost it at a young age.
I crave: A cordon bleu.
I search: to grasp an rope's end.
I wonder: what others that are close to me are thinking, especially the ones that i can't ask directly.
I regret: what ? me ? nah !
I love: the fact that I wore a skirt this morning, soooo comfy (me3waz, wizra whatever you wanna call it .... this thing in case you people start thinking I'm more of a pervert than i already am...) I ache: sometimes when I think too much and end up not sleeping at night.
I am not: a lot of things that people think I am, and I'm a lot of things they never think I could be. All without being a liar or a hypocrite, and just by capitalizing on peoples ability to be in denial
I believe: that I need to be less of an asshole to people, regardless of the fact that i think they totally deserve whats coming to them ... that's why i never am nicer ;)
I dance: atleast once a week, to get the jitterbugs out of my system
I sing: at the top of my lungs while I'm driving (and dancing too)
I cry: rarely now, i think i dried my ducts as a kid (Big boys do cry!)
I fight: with myself quite a lot ...
I win: at losing ? does that qualify ?
I lose: when I feel that it would make others happy while I could careless about it, that's quite often. competitive sports aint my thing
I almost never: fully comprehend anything, there is always more to learn about it.
I always: try to keep the people i care about close to me, closer than most and it sometimes spreads me thin
I confuse: others by my unwillingness to fit in one of two polar camps
I listen: to others and genuinely enjoy.
I can usually be found: at my home(s) .... or online ...
I am scared: of being in my thirties and its totally unrelated to my age.
I need: To be complimented every once in a while (even though i act contrary to that and might bitch at you for doing it)
I am happy about: A lot
I imagine: my area if specialization will be drasticly different than what i studied years ago.

The forgotten tag

Tala & Kinzi tagged me ages ago with the pre-18 tag, Although i think life starts after 18 and whatever you do before really doesn't matter all that much (hmm yeah that includes the crappy tawjihi or whatever else there is in you life as a rights of passage)
so here it goes ...

to list 6 things one should do before becoming 18 years old.

so am just going to say the highlights of pre-18.

1. Ignore the popularity contest that is school, you are who you are make that bloom: so much damage and false expectations in life stem from the fact that life in school mimics real life. If you don't develop the skill to connect with people beyond whats hot right now forget about ever being anything. Accept your differences, start thinking about who you are as a person, that is you, not which religion, family, country, color, and class. take a peak at the raw you.

2. if possible, sleep through it: oh sleeping in school is a must and i enjoyed that part thoroughly, if you feel you are not getting the education that you need from school that is the best protest you can do, while on the other hand you should not lax off and you should carry the burden of your education.

3. Go to a test without even opening a book: There are many types of intelligence in the world, don't make them brainwash you into thinking that you are irrelevant if you suck in any class. try to exercise your own system. by going to a test without studying you are measuring your recollection ability, your independent thought, your retention abilities if you paid attention in class, and you are also testing your stress tolerance and handling. screw a couple of grades points if you manage to get a positive experience in those areas which are far more important later on. you will never always have the whole answers in real life so might as well start now.

4. you are grade what ? i don't care: If you think that you shouldn't know something because its for a higher grade then i suggest that you lock yourself up for life and forfeit the dream of ever becoming more than what you are. You are only limited by the system, so screw the system. If you find that you have interest in something that goes beyond what is offered by the system then go after it, even if its at the peril of other courses that you yourself hold no interest in. Even

5. WHY ? just keep on asking others that: it bears repeating, KEEP ON ASKING WHY. If the answer is "heik" or "its just the way it is", its worth asking "why" again. While getting an answer and learning from others is great, what is even more beneficial is discerning half-truths and uninformed answers from the rest. You will face a lot of bias when you ask for an answer about anything, anywhere. so the sooner you learn to distinguish which ones to keep and hold on and which ones to fight and decimate the better. Always do that with the knowledge that you might be wrong and you aren't always right. Also a warning for the wise, limit the parental "Why" to 5 a day otherwise you might be experiencing some financial hardships.

6. you know money ? You know the thing that you get for just breathing, eating and by now you should know how that sentence finishes: Learn the value of money, money is what makes life easier but its never gives meaning to it. Learn what its worth to not have, and if you can learn how people that have a lot of it act, and how people change which the fluctuation of the amount of money in their pockets. learn what it means to save, learn what it means to over spend. just mess with money, earn money, try to do everything that you can possibly can with money before you hit 18. For it is the only 18 years of your life that your financial mistakes won't come back to haunt you later on.

oh and btw, life starts after 18 so if you want to mess it up try to do it by then ... and like one really annoying presenter from my school days used to say "age is just a number it doesn't matter how old you are, what matters is how much you know in this life"

ENJOY

Gratitude tag

"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning "
Friedrich Nietzsche

OR

"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation"
Oscar Wilde

This is an old tag that was done by Hayat And I got it through Observer, what am supposed to do is pick a quote that expresses gratitude and pick 5 things that am grateful for.
being me!
As Usual i couldn't make up my mind regarding which quote I like more, but they are of the same spirit so I went with both.

It might not be evident how they express gratitude, but to me I feel great gratitude for being an individual. For nothing is more monotonous than living life without always chasing after the answer to the question of "who Am I ? " If at any point I settle for adopting any of the labels thrown at my feet everyday I will lose my individuality and be assimilated into the faceless/nameless crowds.

On the journey of trying to find the answer to that there is one truth that I adopted along the way which has been of a tremendous importance to help me stay the course, which is "I still don't know much about anything". I Strive to learn more about my self, the people around me, and the world hoping to come out with a better understanding that will inch me closer to who am supposed to be to others and hopefully the world.

Since as the previous two paragraph might infer, I am very grateful to every person who is patient with me, who don't write me off at first encounter and help me along the way by tolerating and criticizing my antics who do cross a few red lines every once in a while.

I am grateful for the Arts, for it serves Pandora's box that stretches the boundaries of the conceivable and is the closest celestial appiration that I laid eyes on. For the ability to transfer part of your soul, that endures immortality, and takes a life of its own in other peoples hearts and souls is divination.

All that would not amount to anything if it wasn't for one important thing that makes humans what they are, the most important facility to a greenhorn like me. Ergo, I am most grateful for the ability to reason.

I tag whoever feels like being tagged :D

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hint; hey did u figure out the other possibility :P

10 simple pleasures TAG.... took me long enough

Well Tala(since when is it a private blog ? ?) tagged me a long time ago, but i got busy so here is the my contribution. Since this TAG should already be dead by now as usual am not gonna tag anybody ;)

10. My time wasters, by importance, songs, movies, cartoons(anime), series, art pieces(looking at them, and wishing to own the ones I like one day).

9. Am a good listener and a bad story teller, so i actually enjoy listening to other peoples' problems and helping them resolve or understand them from a different angle.

8. Writing in my blog

7. Getting pampered by my mother.

6. Arguing with my dad, not really arguing more of discussing but since we are so polarized (in stances not attitudes, his opinion means the world to me) we end up on the middle ground usually.

5. Drawing, coloring & designing, but that requires me to be in the right mood.

4. satisfying my... err... instincts. call it what you want to call it what you want "choking the chicken", "flogging the dolphin", "spanking the monkey" am a man. and if any male didn't include this in their top 5 something is wrong :P

3. Enjoying my vices; smoking, drinking, having something in my system in general.

2. Learning anything and everything, either through wiki hopping then digging deeper & deeper. Major topics of interest psychology (personality theories), economics(money market, and economical tools and research in unusual fields), politics, and philosophy.

1. Analyzing peoples personalities and making predictions about their behavior. especially uncovering masks that people wear and even better the reason why !


Well hope that wasn't too gloves off
ENJOY

New Year Tag !

Oh well I been tagged by Tala
and I was so slow to check up on my blog due to the slow internet connection, festivities, then sleeping out the festivities.
So am very late to this party, but here it goes

Best Moments:

• Taking my new job in April i was excited about that for a full 3 months.
• Starting my first start-up :)
• Re-discovering TV which gave me a new escape
• Making some new friends
• Seeing Liverpool Win
• Being able to Enjoy my Favorite thing in the world for the first 6months and then being able to let go for the other 6 months (sorry this had to be cryptic)
• Creating this blog
  
• Seeing a design of mine in the newspaper

Worst Moments:

• The numerous fall outs i had with people i cared about
  
• Losing aim and direction in life
• Green Bay sucking for another year :(
• My startup going through some rough times
  
• Leaving my job early on in the year (though this was good at first)
• Not having the impetus to create something with a pencil and a paper

But all in all it was a good year since i managed to learn new things and experience new things so regardless whether i enjoyed or not it made me Grow

Happy New Year (forgive me its like 48 hours late)

ps. Too late to tag anyone hehehe