I am still speechless and flabbergasted !

When I was reading 7aki's post I couldn't help but be reminded of a little incident which I still can't fully comprehend till this day.

A blink of an eye away. When I was a bit younger , think right around five years old, my parents enrolled me in the bus for my first grade. So like the good responsible first grader kiddo that I was I was expected to ride on the bus and go home and have lunch after school and maybe go out and play with the "other" kids... ok thats what i was supposed to do.

Honestly I was never much of a good sport and playing with other kids in the 7arah was a total bore, and one day I broke the rest of the stereotype in one of my rare instances of impulsiveness. I came home from school and I was anxious to see my mom for some reason, which slips my mind at this age. So as usual I come through our garden to knock on my door, expecting my mom to open up the door. Instead its my eldest sister who was visiting from uni back then. So we say Hi to each other and i drop my bag next to the door. Since I scoured the house to find my mater but to no avail I came back to the only other person in the house that I didn't have to use my sri linkan skills to converse with, my sister...

"Sis, fein mama, leish heyeh mish bil beit ? " I asked her. After looking up from the magazine she was busy reading with a look of how do I dare to disturb her meditative reading with my childish question (ok, ok, she's no ice queen. she's a very warm person but when i still can't overcome the age difference to this day. Back then anything she spoke to me sounded a bit authoritative) . She simply told me that mom went away to clean my grandma's house because she is coming in a few days.

Interesting i thought to my self, why would she not tell me ... weather is nice, check. do we know our destination, check. is there anyone worth informing at home on what am going to embark on, nope. Door open, door closed and on to the open roads. my grandmas house is about a 30 minute walk from my home. So I go on to walk which i thoroughly enjoyed. The first experience of total detachment from those "adults". For some reason all the way up on that hill that leads from gardens street to Rabieh people were looking at me weirdly as I recall, didn't make too much sense to me. For I was going to see my mom and there was nothing that would come between me that goal.

phew, so after walking down the hill, the gardens street, up the hill, then down the hill and up the yet another hill I manage to make it to grandma's house. Hey sis was telling the truth ! there's mom's car outside. So up the elevator we go...
openning the door to the elevator, super excited and accomplished in my euphoria ... "shoo bitsawe 7oon, keef jeit ? keef okhtak khalatak titla3 !" I was thinking to myself ,huh ?! why is mom at the elevator door screeming at me ? . "wala shee, 2irji3et min 2il madraseh 2o sa2lt reem 3anek 2alatli 2inek bi beit teta fa jeet hon".
Lets just say that there very few instances in my life were I've seen my mom that scared and angry with me. My mom was just getting done with the clean up and heading home to make it before I came back from school. So I guess if only the timing was a bit off I don't know how different that would have turned out.
Its a given that I was screamed at all the way back home, only to be welcomed by my frantic sister who was worried sick about me and over reacting. only for her to be blamed for her negligence for not paying attention while I sneaked out on my quest.
With all those emotions flying around there were two things on my mind back then. What the hell is so dramatic about me going to tetas house, dad always said that he used to walk 15 kilometers when he was a kid and he was proud of it.
The other thing being, what was it exactly that i wanted to see mom for ??

So moral of the story moms, provide them kids with cellphones so that they won't have to go walk to get in touch with you since we demand you to be in the expected places at all times. we are ritualistic beings and we require prior knowledge of changes in the routine. In case of emergency you need to be reachable on your cellphones.

On a more recent blunder that left me totally flabbergasted, someone told me that I am actually taking different identities and blogging under them. namely chikapappi and moments of clarity. No offense to those blog owners but my reaction was
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! NEVER !"

ENJOY!

Make up your own title

Well a whole bunch of ideas flowing through my head as usual but since i haven't posted in a while i feel like just flooding them in a single post. since they are non coherent to say the least (well other than just jumbling brain waves in my head) its pick ur own title post.
Helical Governance:

Economical & social ideals seem to be always at schism with reality. It has been pretty much established that communism is not a workable system (Am not gonna go push some Marxist's buttons now) it has been able to last for barely 50 years which by any standard is a short time.
While capitalism and its make-up kit "democracy" have been just able to make inroads in the global sphere and through that process the mask is starting to peel-off.
The current problem that is starting to be faced with a "I want" society is that the "I's" are really
looking out for them selves and through that process the "we" are collectively loosing power.
i.e. while you are out looking to make more money, and establishing an easier life while delegating the governance to someone else, that person is also looking out for the same thing hence collectively the government is not longer concerned about what is best for the people.

The other side of the equation is that during our pursuit of "happyness" we forgot what the value of money was. It was never a goal but a mean, so when you are being enslaved to the means of some body else it will make you a disposable tool once a better and cheaper one comes along, that drives people into a competition of forgoing quality of living just to live.

so why am I talking about all this barely legible nonsense there ( i did warn that this is barely coherent and just brewing).

the idea is not novel by any standard, the short coming of communism that it didn't allow people have the little extra things that makes life a little colorful so it made the people too gray but on the other hand it provided some sense of stability and security (please tell me you want to argue that point) .

On the other hand capitalism allows you to have the world, but the catch is that you have to afford it.

The problem with both is that there is little tie in between the country and the people, we as the people are still the sheep that need the herder to mobilize us.

What is happening currently is that regardless of protesting or civil disobedience the government and the people are not aligning their views. After the election of a representative, which takes all of 1 hour normally, you kick back into you lazy routine and keep getting droned by the monotonousness of daily life. In the meanwhile there is someone that is taking your future and microwaving into into rubble, but it's alright for you are living well right now.

Well that all needs to change, the government needs to subsidize and take control of the essentials. Medical care, education, basic commodity agriculture, utilities need to be under governmental control. those services need to be to essential to make the general population focus on "life" rather than living. when the population is under less of a stress and not worrying about securing the essentials they will have more time on their hands to establish a participatory democracy, no that doesn't mean waiting from election cycle to the next and hoping for the best. Participatory democracy means having the people involved in the governance, in the sense that issue that affect a wide segment of society don't only get passed by the vote of the elected officials but they need the consent of the people.

The connectivity today is what will facilitate the system, for right now we have the ability, education of the masses and tools to accomplish what the Greek democracy set out to achieve. Hence a marriage between democracy and governmental control, with the wisdom of the crowds having the highest level of oversight.

ok that took longer than it should and ate away from the space for other things and its not even detailing what I want.

Some other fliers:

The ever disappearing boundary between the internet and my life; the way things that are happening online are leaving their ripples on my life and vice versa. still undecided whether its a good thing, for i did gain a lot compared to what i could consider that i lost. This idea was brought on by the entertaining scuffles going around which i did find amusing although i abstained from participating.

Eagerly watching the stock market, the currency markets, oil and general global economy is so much fun. i hope my predictions come out right, only a couple of months left and so far everything seems to be on schedule. Bear Stearns bailed ship on the sub-prime titanic , but the CDOs and all that landfill "new age" financial instruments are moving their zeros to the left quicker than investors can drop their pants and bend over. i was looking forward for todays performance after Fridays slippery slump but i think the Plungers are back at it again will see what the reserve meeting will issue tomorrow.

Foreign movies are so much more entertaining that american ones these days. Finally got to watch Nightwatch (a russian sci-fi movie), transformers, and the science of sleep (especially surreal) they were all exceptionally well done. On the other hand been trying to watch Zodiac and black snake moan for a while.

I do feel bad since i haven't updated my playlist, haven't posted much on arabexpats, and haven't done the weekly playlist for the music blog. need to get on top of that as soon as i have the energy.

Also University of Aqaba(yes we are going to have our very own university of las vegas in jordan YAY!!!) is holding off a design contest for their logo with a grand prize of JOD4000. This is open to everyone all you have to do is design a logo (up to 3) jpg (800x600min, and max 250k) have it done by August 21st and send it to us(at)adc(dot)jo
it should be nice to see if people like moey, 360, roba or all the other designer/bloggers give it a shot since it sounds interesting.

and final header......

Emotionally attached types are really a peculiar species, they are always in the "I want" and never in the "maybe circumstances got the best of the situation". Need to stay away from them for a while. Please, please, please let the summer be over ! I had enough of the traffic, the visitors, being nice to people, and the eternal 5-12 vocal tornado that goes through the house on daily bases..... need to invent "silencer" milk drops. I'll even offer to teach them sign language if they are really bent on "screaming", wait how do mute people scream ? how inconsiderate of me.

Ramblings of a bored, tired, sleepy, incoherent on the border of sanity bambam hoping that didn't cause you a migraine if you actually managed to read it which i didn't bother to since its not even proof read, but am grateful for even checking here and hope we will be back in bliss soon and sick of the childishness and immaturity that has been tainting our space.

Cheers & Enjoy